It’s like an never ending roller coaster of stupid words and fruitless actions that are getting me nowhere! Seriously, just throw me a bone or hit ‘PAUSE’ because I need to stop, reevaluate, and just catch my breath.
I won’t go into much detail; I’ve learned my lesson (the hard way, of course, or else it would never have stuck with me) that people seem to misinterpret the slightest remark as the airing of dirty laundry. But whoever originally stated that “When it rains, it pours,” was one hella smart cookie. Seriously. It starts with innocent remarks and offers that seem way too good to be true and then it blows up into ‘he said’, ‘she said’, and regrettable saying and pointed fingers. Then the Drama Llama caravan makes it’s way into other parts of my life: previous drama that I just don’t have the energy to get into (resulting in more spiteful words and normally ignorable actions), unrelated preexisting drama that suddenly finds it’s way into the current situation, and the laughter of those sitting at home watching my misery on television because I have determined that my life is like that of The Truman Show and I’m being horribly set up like Truman Burbank.
Honestly, I’m out of breath just thinking about it. And I can’t seem to sort any of it out in my head because it’s all too confusing. And it doesn’t help that I have a chip on my shoulder and ghetto-mama attitude that points me in the direction of ‘flight’ rather than ‘fight’. But that’s just who I am and I’ve got to bear with me because I’m not always the rational one.
But this Drama Llama caravan (I really, really just like saying ‘drama llama’. It’s fun; I could go for hours sitting on the floor saying ‘drama llama’ like an idiot and be happy, thus I’ve expanded it into a full on concept) stops here. I am determined of that.
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